i still feel somewhere between
una turista stupida
and searching for the connection
..with this place
cartagena is a city with a special energy
there's no doubt about it
and, i know
it shouldn't be my job to judge
not at all
however, one feels more or less connected
with people and places
and my heart is really struggling
to find 'the cartagena connection'
its energy felt more negative to me
from the beginning
all its impressive beauty
it didn't touch my heart
...but slowly
and i try hard
to see more beyond
the theatre and its actors
but the language barrier
keeps me outside
my background too
i don't want to play the european card
i'm not keen on elitarian circles
also, not fancy partying all the time
thus, I wait and keep looking for my spot
...for a connection through amazing people
in the end, it's all about people
until then, I enjoy the company
with the one person who became my home
una turista stupida
and searching for the connection
..with this place
cartagena is a city with a special energy
there's no doubt about it
and, i know
it shouldn't be my job to judge
not at all
however, one feels more or less connected
with people and places
and my heart is really struggling
to find 'the cartagena connection'
its energy felt more negative to me
from the beginning
all its impressive beauty
it didn't touch my heart
...but slowly
and i try hard
to see more beyond
the theatre and its actors
but the language barrier
keeps me outside
my background too
i don't want to play the european card
i'm not keen on elitarian circles
also, not fancy partying all the time
thus, I wait and keep looking for my spot
...for a connection through amazing people
in the end, it's all about people
until then, I enjoy the company
with the one person who became my home
"she knew she loved him
when 'home' went from being a place
to being a person"
E. Leventhal
but yesterday, it was
international women's day
an important day for me
i was excited how i may experience it
while feeling disconnected
from the place i am living in
thus
i was happy it didn't go unrecognised
international women's day
an important day for me
i was excited how i may experience it
while feeling disconnected
from the place i am living in
thus
i was happy it didn't go unrecognised
gracias por el mensaje
it was outside the door
it was outside the door
i wanted to be close to
whatever can happen that day
therefore
i took a long ride
con mi bicicleta
my impressions on gender relations
were so far
men harassing women
fuerte en las calles
men offering
their seats to women
in public transportation
heavy efforts and focus
on female beauty
this international women's day
I saw...
... women working as architects
and project leader in construction building
... holding flowers in their hands
... working hard on the beach to survive
... working as medical stuff
... breastfeeding their child
... men chasing women
...men honouring their female partner
whatever can happen that day
therefore
i took a long ride
con mi bicicleta
my impressions on gender relations
were so far
men harassing women
fuerte en las calles
men offering
their seats to women
in public transportation
heavy efforts and focus
on female beauty
this international women's day
I saw...
... women working as architects
and project leader in construction building
... holding flowers in their hands
... working hard on the beach to survive
... working as medical stuff
... breastfeeding their child
... men chasing women
...men honouring their female partner
and along the way
i lost my pedal
i could organise tools
by asking people
but i couldn't repair it
for longer than 10 minutes
finally
i found a repair station
i just wanted the tools
to do it on my own
but they were irritated
and tried to repair it
and were unsuccessful
as I was before
and instead they tried
to sell me a new pedal
which i friendly refused by saying
no tengo mucha plata
and taking the tool
out of the guys hands
going down on my knees
trying to repair it on my own
all the 8 men around were irritated
but the owner understood
and he repaired it
finally
i could pay an adequate price
and make them understand
that it's better not to underestimate
a women's ability
it felt so good
like a little success
what else?
i received many messages
aka "yes, woman are awesome"
i enjoyed these necessary statements
and also questioned the
"women are wonderful"
celebrations
i understand the importance
of these messages
as long as
girl child's are valued less
in many places all over the world
women are valued less
less spaces to speak
IMAGINE A LONG LIST
OF REASONS
to grow
to be
we need to celebrate
to be also seen as awesome
we need to celebrate us
but i could sense
that men aren't seen
as beautiful creatures
aren't they allowed to own beauty?
and, just because one defines herself as woman
doesn't mean she becomes automatically awesome
but definitely not less awesome
than any other person
i mean it's all about choice
whatever you choose
you should be allowed to
be able to
do
be
however,
until we have a little more
equal rights/ access/ fill in whatever suits you
for women
we need this day
urgently
also, i was irritated about the
concept of women as mothers and partners
i never sacrificed my whole being for others
still, i deserve respect and equality
i mean it is needed to be mentioned
to create awareness to value
reproductive work more
to make it visible
but we all deserve respect and justice
without doing something special
on the other hand,
i could realise
how my personal
feminist perspective changed
since i met a man
i really want to
share my life with
before i met him
i already changed
i could sense a strong longing
to care for another person
i knew i would love to cook
and other stereotypical female gender role stuff
to care in ways
i like
i choose
but i don't want to be pushed into it
i will always rebel against it
nor do i want to declined
myself happiness because
i think i have to be
in a certain way
thus
i realised how much an inflexible mindset
aka "i can't depend on a men"
kept me from trusting
held me back
to connect
deeply
don't even dare
to us this as an
anti-feminist argument!
and i am in between changes now
new mindset
new experiences of happiness
new paths
and i choose us
and he chooses us
we choose us
we adore each other
feel safe
grow
together
how i live best in love
with a partner
i realised
it is necessary
to allow myself to depend
and he also does
and we form a strong bond
and it is full of joy
honesty and interior work
...but i can sense
that i have strong parts in me
that created gender separation
on a personal level
obviously based on experiences
of untrustworthiness on a personal
and shared level
based on histories
now
every day
i feel more free
this is the best feeling
to be allowed to experience
on international women's day
..for me
and make them understand
that it's better not to underestimate
a women's ability
it felt so good
like a little success
what else?
i received many messages
aka "yes, woman are awesome"
i enjoyed these necessary statements
and also questioned the
"women are wonderful"
celebrations
i understand the importance
of these messages
as long as
girl child's are valued less
in many places all over the world
women are valued less
less spaces to speak
IMAGINE A LONG LIST
OF REASONS
to grow
to be
we need to celebrate
to be also seen as awesome
we need to celebrate us
but i could sense
that men aren't seen
as beautiful creatures
aren't they allowed to own beauty?
and, just because one defines herself as woman
doesn't mean she becomes automatically awesome
but definitely not less awesome
than any other person
i mean it's all about choice
whatever you choose
you should be allowed to
be able to
do
be
however,
until we have a little more
equal rights/ access/ fill in whatever suits you
for women
we need this day
urgently
also, i was irritated about the
concept of women as mothers and partners
i never sacrificed my whole being for others
still, i deserve respect and equality
i mean it is needed to be mentioned
to create awareness to value
reproductive work more
to make it visible
but we all deserve respect and justice
without doing something special
on the other hand,
i could realise
how my personal
feminist perspective changed
since i met a man
i really want to
share my life with
before i met him
i already changed
i could sense a strong longing
to care for another person
i knew i would love to cook
and other stereotypical female gender role stuff
to care in ways
i like
i choose
but i don't want to be pushed into it
i will always rebel against it
nor do i want to declined
myself happiness because
i think i have to be
in a certain way
thus
i realised how much an inflexible mindset
aka "i can't depend on a men"
kept me from trusting
held me back
to connect
deeply
don't even dare
to us this as an
anti-feminist argument!
and i am in between changes now
new mindset
new experiences of happiness
new paths
and i choose us
and he chooses us
we choose us
we adore each other
feel safe
grow
together
how i live best in love
with a partner
i realised
it is necessary
to allow myself to depend
and he also does
and we form a strong bond
and it is full of joy
honesty and interior work
...but i can sense
that i have strong parts in me
that created gender separation
on a personal level
obviously based on experiences
of untrustworthiness on a personal
and shared level
based on histories
now
every day
i feel more free
this is the best feeling
to be allowed to experience
on international women's day
..for me