we all want our story to be sunshiny.
we don’t want other people to judge us,
only if their judgement feeds our ego
... but because people are the way they are,
they’ll judge you and that will be the reason why they aren’t able to listen to all the other wonderful story you wanna share.
I am brave. I already share a lot, explain and care less
(yes, you don't wanna know how it was when I was younger, see also rebel years).
but sometimes, we want to control what kind of story we share with whom. we wanna influence how certain or all people see us. and that is ok, even if their perception of ourselves is only a reflection of them, and vice versa.
we all want to be loved.
actually, that’s one of the reasons why I didn’t write about the people I met, as planned. I like human beings and wanted to write about the souls along my way.
but it occured to me that, firstly, it captures only tiny pieces of who they are. moreover, chances are very high that my glimpse of their being has nothing to do with the story they’d love to tell. that's not fair. also, my judgement may be bad and ignores the beauty beneath appearance, it possibly changes 5 minutes after posting, and is often too harsh when it’s other times too optimistic. same appears when it comes to myself. secondly, as much as I want to get it it right I need to accept that I judge, all the time.
therefore, my english may be as bad as much how I perceive the world is narrow minded. I make mistakes in words, perception and in life all the time. but I started writing this blog and posting about it anyways.
SMALL REMINDER:
when I write about people, places or myself, all of it...
... it's only an impressions in the blink of an eye.
apropos blink and eye, it reminds me of this book that I highly recommend to you! www.goodreads.com/book/show/24141569-the-blink-that-killed-the-eye
anthonyanaxagorou.com
we don’t want other people to judge us,
only if their judgement feeds our ego
... but because people are the way they are,
they’ll judge you and that will be the reason why they aren’t able to listen to all the other wonderful story you wanna share.
I am brave. I already share a lot, explain and care less
(yes, you don't wanna know how it was when I was younger, see also rebel years).
but sometimes, we want to control what kind of story we share with whom. we wanna influence how certain or all people see us. and that is ok, even if their perception of ourselves is only a reflection of them, and vice versa.
we all want to be loved.
actually, that’s one of the reasons why I didn’t write about the people I met, as planned. I like human beings and wanted to write about the souls along my way.
but it occured to me that, firstly, it captures only tiny pieces of who they are. moreover, chances are very high that my glimpse of their being has nothing to do with the story they’d love to tell. that's not fair. also, my judgement may be bad and ignores the beauty beneath appearance, it possibly changes 5 minutes after posting, and is often too harsh when it’s other times too optimistic. same appears when it comes to myself. secondly, as much as I want to get it it right I need to accept that I judge, all the time.
therefore, my english may be as bad as much how I perceive the world is narrow minded. I make mistakes in words, perception and in life all the time. but I started writing this blog and posting about it anyways.
SMALL REMINDER:
when I write about people, places or myself, all of it...
... it's only an impressions in the blink of an eye.
apropos blink and eye, it reminds me of this book that I highly recommend to you! www.goodreads.com/book/show/24141569-the-blink-that-killed-the-eye
anthonyanaxagorou.com
thus, today I'm gonna give myself permission
to fail and to do better afterwards.
please, feel free and inspired to allow yourself something today.
I keep allowing myself something new almost every day.
I say to myself:
'today, I'm allowing myself to be...'
...e.g., brave, angry, bold, vurnerable,...
to fail and to do better afterwards.
please, feel free and inspired to allow yourself something today.
I keep allowing myself something new almost every day.
I say to myself:
'today, I'm allowing myself to be...'
...e.g., brave, angry, bold, vurnerable,...
summarized, what you think of me - 'good' or 'bad' - is ‘none of my business’
still searching for that awesome youtube video!!! since 3 years!
any suggestions? please, let me know!!!
what I think of you is ‘none of your business’? well, I can't say that.
I can’t really speak for anybody else. but while writing about others this is exactly what I'm doing. I'm kind of ignoring the self defined representation of others.
this double standard? I don't like it at all!!
and sometimes, I think it's better to share only the good deeds in the world.
and I know that instead of assuming smart people ask the other person.
I will write about people anyway.
and until I learn better, bare with me…
plus, I won’t write about aaaaall the things that are happening.
today, I decided to change how I write: 20 min a day. that’s it.
I won’t spend more time on writing. I need to learn spanish, to 'call in the one', learn a bit more about Colombia, and need to dance a bit more.
meaning, I can only pick one story a day.
hopefully, it makes me write faster and enables me to write daily!
...which never worked out in my life so far.
I am ready for the new, for the unknown and for the better.
fingers crossed!