today i made a decision.
I AM GOING TO BECOME MY BIGGEST SUPPORTER!
i mean, i already started learning some lessons
like 10 years ago
about giving myself what i am searching in other people
e.g. affection, love, attention, caring well, respect,...
and i started to give these things myself
i gave myself affection, attention,
cared well, treated me to wonderful dates just with myself,
respected myself very well,... etc.
but,
there are circumstances in life,
sometimes,
when we are not able to give us the things we are missing.
why?
because,
well, i can only speak for myself,
i am human.
i am not perfect
or fulfill my expectations all the time.
and knowing that
it would be so great
for every social interaction
if i could be able to do so,
well, that kind of thinking
just puts extra pressure on it.
today i was talking with a friend from Italy
you know the situation there is mas o menos
meaning, it is horrible
and, life didn't stop because of Corona
i mean, there are still wounds that need our attention
there is still pain that wants to be recognized
there are still people suffering
from a wide range of stuff that have been in their lives
before Corona.
there is heartbreak,
people fighting depression,
experiences of racism, sexism, ablism, etc.,
family drama,
and a lot more.
thus, we were exchanging expertise in theoretical life advices
we are still in the process of putting them into practice into our lives.
and when i told her how helpful it can be
to make the decision
to become one's #1 supporter...
i realized that i haven't done that yet.
and i became so excited about it.
i am a good supporter, always been,
for others.
meaning, i am fucking great in it.
now, i am so happy to become my biggest supporter
because,
it means, i am going to give it all my best,
all the time,
but also according to circumstances.
if i am not able,
for example,
in this moment,
to give myself the self-love
i think i am deserving,
that's okay. because, i am confident
i am going to be able to do so
another day
thus,
there isn't a hidden feeling
of failing my self-expectation
anymore.
and i am so so good in being a supporter.
it is something that is doable.
i am so looking forward to it.
and, the experiment is starting today.
I AM GOING TO BECOME MY BIGGEST SUPPORTER!
i mean, i already started learning some lessons
like 10 years ago
about giving myself what i am searching in other people
e.g. affection, love, attention, caring well, respect,...
and i started to give these things myself
i gave myself affection, attention,
cared well, treated me to wonderful dates just with myself,
respected myself very well,... etc.
but,
there are circumstances in life,
sometimes,
when we are not able to give us the things we are missing.
why?
because,
well, i can only speak for myself,
i am human.
i am not perfect
or fulfill my expectations all the time.
and knowing that
it would be so great
for every social interaction
if i could be able to do so,
well, that kind of thinking
just puts extra pressure on it.
today i was talking with a friend from Italy
you know the situation there is mas o menos
meaning, it is horrible
and, life didn't stop because of Corona
i mean, there are still wounds that need our attention
there is still pain that wants to be recognized
there are still people suffering
from a wide range of stuff that have been in their lives
before Corona.
there is heartbreak,
people fighting depression,
experiences of racism, sexism, ablism, etc.,
family drama,
and a lot more.
thus, we were exchanging expertise in theoretical life advices
we are still in the process of putting them into practice into our lives.
and when i told her how helpful it can be
to make the decision
to become one's #1 supporter...
i realized that i haven't done that yet.
and i became so excited about it.
i am a good supporter, always been,
for others.
meaning, i am fucking great in it.
now, i am so happy to become my biggest supporter
because,
it means, i am going to give it all my best,
all the time,
but also according to circumstances.
if i am not able,
for example,
in this moment,
to give myself the self-love
i think i am deserving,
that's okay. because, i am confident
i am going to be able to do so
another day
thus,
there isn't a hidden feeling
of failing my self-expectation
anymore.
and i am so so good in being a supporter.
it is something that is doable.
i am so looking forward to it.
and, the experiment is starting today.