well, my choice..
(sorry my description is so gender biased... it's only from my perspective. I am learning, i am sure i will do better in the future...you are all queens, kings or queings!!)
...didn't feel good at first. It felt like I'm giving up...losing
moreover, i cannot imagine how a relationship works without what i want from him. i have to trust that there will be another way even if i cannot see it yet
...didn't feel good at first. It felt like I'm giving up...losing
moreover, i cannot imagine how a relationship works without what i want from him. i have to trust that there will be another way even if i cannot see it yet
...but it was quite the opposite. one of the best decisions i've ever made.
now i feel lighter and trust more that everything is going to be fine even if i am just at the beginning of the process.
i am growing... there is no point in losing when growing. there is only winning.
now i feel lighter and trust more that everything is going to be fine even if i am just at the beginning of the process.
i am growing... there is no point in losing when growing. there is only winning.
additional information:
1. as a woman who knows about patriarchy being in a relationship with a man i experience a basic fear of symbioses. luckily, he is not only a man. and i really want to have a symbiotic connection with this person. thus, i have to trust, allowing the fear to be there but risking everything anyways.
2. i really need a haircut
3. 80% good is one of the best percentage within a relationship. i believe there is no 100% in life. if we experience 80% good that is already over-average than what most people experience. i am still learning that life cannot be sunshine all the time...but i know that life can be full of magic. i know i can do magic. i know you can do magic.
4. it is okay if i whine from time to time or if i don't like myself all the time or cannot be as awesome as i want to be...
1. as a woman who knows about patriarchy being in a relationship with a man i experience a basic fear of symbioses. luckily, he is not only a man. and i really want to have a symbiotic connection with this person. thus, i have to trust, allowing the fear to be there but risking everything anyways.
2. i really need a haircut
3. 80% good is one of the best percentage within a relationship. i believe there is no 100% in life. if we experience 80% good that is already over-average than what most people experience. i am still learning that life cannot be sunshine all the time...but i know that life can be full of magic. i know i can do magic. i know you can do magic.
4. it is okay if i whine from time to time or if i don't like myself all the time or cannot be as awesome as i want to be...